It's funny how people think they know you, when they actually don't. And you think you know people. but in reality you actually don't know them. Take me for an example, no one knows who the real me is, I could have been faking my identity my whole life. Truce, I have always been honest about who I am, but have I really be honest about what I like, and what kind of person I am when I'm alone. I seem to be the shy nice girl, that normally doesent speak up her own mind. But when I'm alone, I actually become a different person. And on the Internet, your just another person, from who you really are.
I have different personalities, I realized that. And it's actually scary, cause it's also hard to remember, when to pull it off. Shy and sweet, weird and funny, bitch with attitude, or just a loner? who to pick, that must be a hard choice. cause who wants to be any of it. I can be different things, I can be what ever you want. But truly, I just wanna be who I am. and who is that? I can't choose, so that's why I can be all those things, cause in reality, when I walk on the street, my head can't even be held high, and why? Because people, are bullshit to this community, fear is all over the place. Fear, from being held out in public, fear to get ruined your life, and the fear of what other thinks.
All by life I have been caught up in what people think of me, truth I still do that sometimes. but at the same time, I learned to be just me. I can hide, when I write. Hide when I do other things, hate being out in public, but at the same time, I like showing bitches, that I exist as well. They can't control your life, they can't control your community, and they sure as fuck can't control you. So hold your head up high, no matter how much you fear the public. weather your fat, thin, weird, silly, beautiful. Just hold your head up, cause all people are beautiful. Better than being a beautiful girl with an ugly personality!
But of course, everyone has their own opinion, and everyone is aloud to have that. I'm just saying, that why lock your self inside, and why hide away, because your afraid of what everyone thinks of you? Stop it, and show who you are. I know it's difficult, I just wanna hide. I got nothing to prove, and yet I do. Life isn't perfect, and life is never going to be perfect. You must be silly, if you think life will ever be perfect.
and then, I stand back... still with the same f-ing question.
- WHO AM I?
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