..

word.

Yeah.

Hello World, out there. Who ever is watching.

Lets take a minute, and pray for Boston. <3
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1 minute later.

I haven't been here, a lot actually... Why? because I haven't been in the mood, for writing.. So I got, this answer from the publisher, to my book. Ehm, wanted it translated to Danish! yeah, that's gonna take some while. But I'm willing to at least, try.

I really don't known what to write? I mean...
I feel numb.. I got no feelings left, inside of me.
It's like, everything is on standby.
I pushed the pain, the sadness, and the anger away.
I can't cry.. it feels good, to be without all those feelings.
even though, I know it's stupid pushing it away.

....

xxxx

,,

Non posso, vivere senza di te.
Mi manchi così tanto :(

No.

You said you'd never leave.
You promised... you said "Forever"
but I guess, that doesn't mean anything to you know.

I wish I could find the courage to forgive you
- but it's too late. I can't,
no matter how much, it kills me, that you are no longer
a part of me.

goodbye M. forever. :(

...

Game over M.
Thank you for playing.
Just thank you..
I will never be able to forgive you.
Prick. Idiot. Jerk. Ass. Scumbag!
































:'(

When you come to that point...

Welcome to, the fuckd up world, where my opinions, doesent matter, and no one really cares. Is there anyone out there? IS THERE ANYONE LEFT WITH A HEART? I didn't think so either.

Wanna hear something?
- Like I would ever share, that.

You know that feeling, when you get so close to someone, you see them as your brother, and you two have this strong bond, and nothing can break it... you always both said : Forever means forever... and then someday, you meet this jerk, that he turned into, and pushes you away, because he says it's the best for everyone. You know how it hurts, loosing someone that means a lot to you, even though you have never met this person before.

fuck you, m.... fuck you!

Oh, yeah.. I wrote jerk, just because I felt like! that doesent mean, he really is a jerk. I just point it out, right! just for the fact, you are so dead to me now. You can say sorry so many times you want to, but that won't change the fact, that when you needed me and L the most, you pushed us away, because you suddenly needed to change. I know there's probably a lot of stuff and history behind, but honestly... THERE IS NO EXCUSE, FFS.

so here we are... Me and L, standing left with only, words - that was bullshit, and all I wanna say, is ; fuck you. just fuck you.. I hope your mouth is full of bad taste! and that you feel, fucking bad..
I know it's cruel, but it's the truth...

Knife I the throat, ripped out heart, being drowned.
- could be the feelings. you just stepped on.
poor girl. I feel so sorry for what she feels for you.
I know she doesent wanna give up, on you..
but when it comes to love, I'm protecting her, from you!
your the one who was supposed to love her, and support her, and take care of her
but instead, you turn in to a heartless fucking ass!
god, I wish I could give you that slap in the face, you deserve...
I know, we should have been careful when it came to you.

I JUST WANNA SCREAM, GET THE FUCK AWAY.

AND JUST FUCKING REMOVE HER THOUGHTS ABOUT YOU.
SHE WON'T LET YOU GO, FOR FUCK SAKE.
BUT SHE HAS TOO. FOR HER OWN BEST.

I LOVE YOU L. YOU KNOW, IM ALWAYS RIGHT HERE.
FOR EVER AND ALWAYS.
I ALWAYS KEEP MY PROMISE TO YOU.
<3

xxx

My baby.

Today, i got my baby!
Which means, my scooter. <3

xxx

Sometimes... just sometimes

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

Its been days since i have been posting. I realize that at the moment. Oh well, im not feeling it lately, had a quiet small break for two days, from roleplay - it was nice. A lot had happened around me, so i needed it. But im back, but i still dont feel like in the mood for it, but im there - for my beautiful diamond. 

So, have a nice easter.

xxxx

D:

Love.

You can't wake up, the next day not loving the person anymore.
Either you love them, or you never did....

I say...

WHY HAVE A KINGDOM? WHY HAVE A KIND OR QUEEN, AND PRINCESSES AND PRINCES. I DONT GET IT? WANNA HEAR MY OPINION?

DROP THE ROYAL HOUSE. AND GET A FUCKING PRESIDENT!

^WE WANT YOU, AND YOU, AND YOU.

TO VOTE TO GET A PRESIDENT, IN DENMARK.

WHY HAVE THE ROYAL FAMILY, AS THE CONTROL?

I DONT NEED THEM. I NEED A PRESIDENT.

AND I DONT GIVE A SHIT, IF YOU DONT SHARE THE SAME, OPINION AS ME!!!

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

I realize i havent been writing that much, the last couple of days. It has nothing to do with me, not wanting to write. Its just, i havent really felt like i had the right things to write, or the right words to put down.

I realize, that im starting to finally being happy again, but as soon as that thought pops up into my head, i get sad. I cant see, how its possible, that i can walk around smiling, laughing and being happy, when someone is out there, being sad. For example, i feel quilty for smiling, and laughing, when i know my dad is in heaven. I dont know if he is looking down at me, smiling to me, and being happy about our lives, that has to move on without him. The truth is, i dont wanna feel quilty, i dont wanna be sad, i dont wanna keep crying, but i do. And it happens all the time, i cant control my feelings, or my thoughts for that matter. I just wish there was a possibilty to bring back, the people you lost to death. But there isnt, and i might not never understand, why there isnt, when someone can be that important, that without them you feel like nothing. 

To be honest, i lately feel like im losing it. Im loosing my minds, and my thoughts inside of my head, im not saying im going crazy at all. I just, think different than other people. I wanna do something big, something remarkable, something that people will remember me for. Thats a goal i wanna set, before its my time to lose my soul to death. Something big, i can look back on when i get old, when i start a family, on my own with my fiance. It has to be, something that is remeberable, something that people like also. Something i will remember and take with me in the grave. I do wonder, if i wanna be put in a grave, or if i wanna be burned. My dad got burned, and spread over the ocean. Could be the perfect, last thing, to be spread where he was. I know its something that i shouldnt worry about, at this time. So im gonna hide it away, and think about the big thing, i wanna do. That people around me, will remember me for. 

Its hard to look, at me as a person right now. Cause right now, most people dont know who i am. They look at me, and sees a scared young girl, trying to survive everything in this world. I could walk out the door, and be someone complete stranger, from who i am. But is that a good thing, or a bad thing? I do really wanna be someone else, from who i am today. I wanna have more power, and strength, and just let go of all the nervousness, and awkwardness i have built up inside me. But i guess, what happened in the pass, follows you to the future, no matter how hard you try to push it away. It will always, come back.

I can safely say, that when i was a kid. Maybe im still a kid, i guess to my family i am. But i grow up, and someday, ill do something, that is big. Hopefully i will get there, sometime. But when i was a kid, i wasnt a good kid. Maybe i was, sometimes, but there were times, where i guess my parents could have killed me, for what i did. I lied, i was drinking early, smoking when i was 10, and fulling around with the wrong people. I did have some few friends, that i still know today. And its good, but it isnt good, thinking aboutt all the awful things you did in the past. I know, leave the past behind you, try focus on the future. But if the past, still haunts you down, how can you only focus on the future then? Thats a question, ill never get answered.

The funny thing is, i dont wanna be stuck, in this world, as he overweigh girl. I wanna be thin, i wanna fit into a pair of jeans, i just look at and think 'i need to have them' i wanna be able, to walk around in the clothes, i find suitable. The shoes i want, the clothes i love. And i wanna explore, my look. But how can i do that, how is it possible, to do that, when you dont know where to start? Its not that i dont wanna do anything at all, being lazy is just a big thing. It happens, when something bad happens, and you cant really control it, you just need to think and say 'I CAN DO IT.' i did that. but for how long? im still doing it, you know. im trying to take control over what i couldnt before.

Before all this, begins to sounds like something crap, or bullshit, that doesent make any sense. Im gonna end it now. Im gonna control my life, im gonna hit in the table, and im gonna look into the mirror, and telling my self, that its now or never...

Sometimes

You just gotta do it. You only got one chance in life, don't blew it.

Let go, just let go..

People say, sometimes that letting go is sometimes the best thing to do, to move on with your life. But at this point, it's not a choice to let go. How can you let go, from this? It's not possible to let go, only to move on... and moving on, isn't okay either. it's just something you have to live with for the rest of your life.

I miss you, always.

It just didn't work...

Why didn't it work? why couldn't I make it work? why the fuck, didn't it work? D;

17031950......

Today would have been your 63 birthday.
the sad part, is..... your not even here anymore D:
I miss you, every second of every day that passes by.
I love you always, dad.

xxxx your daughter.


ps. I hope I'll see you, if I go to heaven someday.
can't wait to see you again. <3

Treppner.

Tomorrow, ill see this amazing girl.

Aileen treppner <3333333

Amazed!

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

so, i have this amazing friend that is living in the USA, her name i wont mention, i can say i call her L. shes like a sister to me, we have been bonding the past 6 months, and i can asure you all, that shes the most sweetes woman i have ever talked to. we started writing letters to each other, and today i got something special with the mail.

can you all see it? a niall horan necklace, and a sweet bracelet with one direction.

and then theres this amazing, sweet necklace that says 'sisters for ever.'

isnt she just, the person to love? miss moore, you rocked my world.

i got one thing to say to you.

i love you. <3

xxxxxx

2.2 lbs.

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

So I was at my nurse today, looks like I lost 2.2 lbs, god it's amazing. I know it's not that much but if I already lost 27 lbs, then it's just..... amazing for me! I'm truly happy, that everything goes by the plan. Sooner or later, I will be at my goal for sure. <3


xxx

Migraine..

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

Had this huge headache / migraine last night, lastet for many many hours. And this morning when i woke up, i was so empty in my head - that i was so confused. My head feel sor. And god, i slept for 12 hours, i dont even know where to begin today. Im so lost, feels really awful, like i have been drinking, but i havent.

oh well... gotta try figure out, what im gonna do today.

hehehehehehhehehehehehehhee.

xxxx

fuckingFUCK

Welcome to DortheasFuckingWorld....

Fvnfigdmda,oaplddvnf,ladodnvrml,svfmfolv,samifrnug,omrugrvkmdsmkfrnvdmickmnifvdkdmladmrvmrfmskmfrkdamsansaqaanwfnrfmvmxmajseunvrbusunzajjnenfendinwmdkfneidnasmwkmdemifeksknaksmefnkkdainndnwodmwinfeinfwkmdlmamlslxomeodmeincrnieinsxkasomaodemofinrvnkndmlsalmsmlaknenkfeknsmalmsmfinibinrvinaelfnjlsr,.rabjsrgsrbfjaihbdahlbchebalfjlaewdbueacljaejbdaljfbjaejbflusebcubleacljaedfjbeacbceulfnjeadblauefdabjefeahbfbhoeafeluealbfaljenfljeadjnlaejbdljnaeljneanjlfjnleadnweljnwejnlnjlefnjaeddjlnealjndjlneacjnlelbeljndcenjlfuleanjfenjfnjleafjlnewcjlbefjnleaflbfejljalneeajlnaelnfilnaeifnaendilianecnilnelfiewlia einnjadjclneanjfsrubofobjsdulnfdunlfjnrosnurskdkd

^ that's for the fucking buss times.
and for the fact, that I have to wait 2 hours before my meeting.
and because I hate, I fucking hate the country Denmark.
-pukes- pppffffffft.


ooooo

hurting

...... dad? my tummy hurts. D':

miss Stroup

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

Everyone is familiar with Jessica Stroup right? then I can only say, she's an amazing actor. I love her in the Tv show 90210... it's like, wow.. I want her clothes, her hair, and her style.. she's so special, and she got class!

I wish I was looking like her... god dammit!


xxxx

I FUCKING DID IT....

OMFG, WELCOME TO DORTHEASWORLD. 
- I FUCKING DID IT. I DID IT!
-CLAPS MY SHOULDER.-
I FUCKING DID IT MAN, MY BOOK IS FUCKING DONE... AND NOW, IM FINISHED WRITING IT. <3333333333333333333333333333333333


- believe me, there will be more coming from me ;)..

lost in my own world

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

Have you ever been in that state, where you just wanna dig yourself a hole, and stay in it for ever? Its like you can scream, so loud you want to, but no one can really hear it. No one will ever understand how much it really hurts, being alone and feeling hopeless, without that person. Nothing can save you from this, no one, and nothing. You really just wanna be alone, cause nothing can fix whats broken, and no one can bring that special person back that you have lost, lost to heaven. 

I know your a beautiful star now, but sometimes i wish actually make that all the time, i wish you never passed away. You belong down here on earth, with mom, me, and everyone else in your family. We miss you, more than words can describe. And all we want, is you back.

<3

twat

OH, YOUR A TWAT.
BUT I LOOOOOVE CHU. <3

total

Not skinny enough......................

"If I could be just skinny, I would be happy. We all look at it differently, the hell we do."

as you are now

As you are now, you could disappear, and no one would notice.
- Could that be true, and happen to anyone?

Im in love with you, and all these little things.....

Have you ever felt, so close to a person or more people, but yet your so far away from them? in my eyes, they are amazing. But in their eyes, I'm just another fan. Is it fair? Well, they can't run around, knowing everyone personally. But trust me, I'm so sad about not being able to see them, when they come here to Denmark. Sometimes, life is unfair. Right now, it sure is.

1D, for life. <3
xxxx

Wild red.

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

So I got a haircut last night, my brother helped me cut the hair, in the back.. Needed something new, so we did it our selfs. I got an undercut, almost like Miley Cyrus has her hair. :3

Oh, well not because I don't wanna post anything today. but.. I'm having a weird headache, and yeah..


On the photo, I have also got a red hair color now. hehehehehehe hehehehehehe!!!!! :3

xxxxxxx

Society

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

It couldn't be more true, that society kills us. All the bullying, all the words, that's been said to people. I we actually do take it serious. When you call us fat, we go home starve our selfs, or puke all we can, just to try being thin. Someone even commits suicide, and the person that is left to blame, is actually you - because you were the one, calling her fat when she didn't needed it. You were the one to make it explode. all the judging ends up exploding a person. I only know, because I have been there. I was they called fat, bullied because I was too big, and I was weird, and guess what? I tried starving my self, puking to forgery everything, just so I could be skinny enough for people like you wouldn't judge me anymore. but did it help? no it only makes everything worse. We try, but we can't succeed, if the words keeps coming.

Society kills us, and that's how it's always gonna be. No one is perfect. Everyone is beautiful on their own way. Deal with it. Just do it.

Dont you think I wanna be skinny? Then quit calling me fat. I know I'm fat, and you know what? I don't give a fuck about what you think about me... Im doing everything I can, to be skinny... happy? you should be, cause it's people like you, that pushes us, and screws with our minds.

Just fuck off, will ya?


xxxx

Shes like an sister

Miss Moore, I don't know where to put you in my world. The craycray thing is, that even though I have never met you, I still feel like you and I have known each other for years, actually my whole life. I feel you have always been there, where you are now in my life. Being able you write letters with you, and writing over the internet with you, makes it better - I hate that you live so far away. It's so annoying, just come here instead of living in USA! Just move to Denmark, as you say you want to, Hehehe... but as you say my mom must have a unknown daughter somewhere, and thay person is you! You will forever be my big sister.. I love uuuuuu, miss Moore trust me on that one. <3

6 months! YUSH! <333333333

XXXXXXX

Zebra

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

I made my self some zebra nails today... it went okay, am not really that satisfied, but its okay.. tried, and it went okay!

Gonna try make, tiger nails, and loads of different decorations later, when the zebra is off. Got this new box of deco to nails, so its gonna be a little try out. Lololololol.

Xxxxxxx

15 years.

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

For 15 years now, I have been in school with you. We might not, know each other at first, but at the ages went by, you and I started clicking, we started to become best friends, on and of all the time. We had our fights, but we sure as hell, also had our best moments. You have always had a quiet special place in my heart, since you and I have been through every possible thing together, there's so much to mention. Really, all the times we have lied, being drunk, done incredible stuff, and done so much shit. I keep every memory hidden in my heart. Now your this amazing independent woman, soon to be a mother and I can't believe, that I' wasn't the first to be. Hahaha, nah. you are an amazing woman, and I wish you and your loved guy, every best thing in this world. I can't believe, how incredible everything turned out to be, I mean after everything you and I have been through.

Now I'll get visit from you on Monday, and I can't wait to see your big belly, with an amazing kid inside of it. I'll wish you still every happiness, for the three of you, in the future. And every luck for you guys also! I love you, and I care about you tremendously, be sure of that - you'll always be special to me <3

xxxxx

Friendship

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

Friendship are really important. I might not be the greatest friend, but when it comes to people I care about, I would do everything to stand by there side and protect them. I adore my friends, and I would do everything to help them. I might not have many friends, and I don't have many close, but the people who stand me the closest, means the world to me. It's hard to describe, what you wanna go through for a friendship, I wanna go through fire and water, and through everything.

You are really, remarkable. I can't say it enough, if your my friend - then it means you are fucking special to me. You might not see it that often, or maybe we don't talk for a long time, but you'll always have a major place in my heart, that will never fade away. I care so fast, that's why I hate getting too close to quickly, since people hurt people fast. But I'm trying not to hurt people. and I'm doing my best not to. But, if your my friend, I'll try do everything in my power, for you to know, that you got a special place In my heart. And of course, I on my own knows who my true friends are. <3


xxxx

Happy b day, delate!

Happy birthday, charming Boy! 3 big years, was celebrated today.. and you got some fine ass gifts, your mommy and daddy can only be proud of having such a lovely child as you... uncle rene and aunt Sara loves u!
Now we are on our way home from there.  And we had a good weekend. Even though I didn't sleep that good, stupid adorable dog. -laughs-

Can't want to get home, to my own dog. Mmh, missed him! Have a great weekend, everyone.

Updates later. Tehe!

Xxx

A walk down memorylane

It was the day, of the day.
It's been months ago, where we threw roses out in the water were your ashes were spread. I miss you!

You just YOU

With you I wanna travel, around the whole world. Just take my hand, and promise to be mine forever? <3

So the trip begins.. we are driving to Horsens, to visit family. I needed to check in here. Update a little, just eat some peanuts. Funny huh? Not really. Oh well, he is scared to death that the car won't last the whole way, but he is just being a typical worried man. I love you babe.

Another thing I got on my heart;
"Some times you gotta follow your mind, instead of your heart - even if it is a big risk to take."

Some people are too good to be true. Sorry, but that's a true story.

Peace.
Xxxxxxx

Rita

RITA ORA - SHINE YA LIGHT <3


We gold, we gold, we shine
We gold, we gold, we shine
We gold, we gold, we shine
We gold, we gold, we shine

Hey there rock star
Turn up your radio
I can hear you coming
Starts up the video
You're still standing
They'll never knock you down
The beat never ending
Let me hear your heart pound

Eh, ah, eh, ah
Eh, oh, a shining star
Eh, ah, eh, ah
Don't matter where you are

Wo-oh, shine your light
Wo-oh, set the world on fire
Wo-oh, shine tonight
Wo-oh
(set the world on fire)

We gold, we gold, we shine
We gold, we gold, we shine

We going solar
Push up your lights out
Faster and faster
I see the sun rising higher

Eh, ah, eh, ah
Eh, oh, a shining star
Eh, ah, eh, ah
Don't matter where you are

Wo-oh, shine your light
Wo-oh, set the world on fire
Wo-oh, shine tonight
Wo-oh
(set the world on fire)

Wo-oh, shine your light
Wo-oh, set the world on fire
Wo-oh, shine tonight
Wo-oh
(set the world on fire)

And we don't give up till we run out of desire
We see the finish and we never get tired
We are the winners cause we hold the world title
We started slow, but we beat you in the final

Eh, ah, eh, ah
Eh, oh, a shining star
Eh, ah, eh, ah
Don't matter where you are

Wo-oh, shine your light
Wo-oh, set the world on fire
Wo-oh, shine tonight
Wo-oh
(set the world on fire)

Wo-oh, shine your light
Wo-oh, set the world on fire
Wo-oh, shine tonight
Wo-oh
(set the world on fire)

We gold, we gold, we shine
We gold, we gold, we shine

We gold, we gold, we shine
We gold, we gold, we shine



xxxxx

Weekend.

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

So, from this afternoon to tomorrow evening, kind off i will be off. 

Might get the chance to publish a little, but its not sure.

Ill be leaving for Horsens with my fiance, to visit family up there

and celebrate this amazing kids birthday....

so i might catch you soon.

xxxx take care.

Off

Is it possible, that a picture like this can make you smile?
I know it can, since those two are kind off special.
Emma Steele & Hanna Marin.
Bestfriends. <3
RP, IS THE BEST. HEHEHEHEEHEHE 8)


xxxxx

Hanna

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

when i take a look at theese pictures.

it just reminds me, of the people i have met.

woooa. <3

xxxxx

Be careful

Welcome to DortheasWorld.

I woke up, this morning to a extraordinary message. My friend, was leaving his town, to go do some work. He made a goodbye message, for me and his amazing woman. When i see this guy, he's like a brother to me. Me and him, are really close. Might sound weird, after we only know eachother through the internet. But as hard as it is to admit, he have done a lot for me, that im thankful for. I wish you a safe trip, and me and Emma will be waiting when you return! Stay safe, all the time. 

Im bad at writing such things, when it comes to goodbyes. But its not a goodbye, its a 'i see you soon'. Be strong, while your away. And keep your head up high! None of us, knows when you will return. So we will be waiting, to hear from you...

xxxxx <3

This pictures, says it all.

Sister & brother.

in RP, and ooc.

<3

Creepy

It keeps creeping me out, that the storm is so powerful right now. The freaking door, keeps making noises, and the wind is fucking irritation. What the fuck, how am I supposed to sleep when this whiny noise, keeps coming inside, and the door keeps smacking even though it's not closed.

I tell you, what I will do...
Put my pillow over my head, and my cover, also. so I won't get scared D; Duh, like I get scared of it. but seriously, it is creepy. a little scaring, maybe the fire alarm, will make noises too soon! I bet it will, and if it does, I'll let you know.

-laughs- oh well, my bed is warm, the room is warm, and I have my iPad here.
so goodnight folks, this might be my last blog, tonight.
xxxx till the morning comes.



- Shes out.

This is crazy.....

Thank you...
just thank you guys.
couldnt have written the book, without you.
<3
Roleplayers, for lifetime!

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