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word.

Yeah.

Hello World, out there. Who ever is watching.

Lets take a minute, and pray for Boston. <3
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1 minute later.

I haven't been here, a lot actually... Why? because I haven't been in the mood, for writing.. So I got, this answer from the publisher, to my book. Ehm, wanted it translated to Danish! yeah, that's gonna take some while. But I'm willing to at least, try.

I really don't known what to write? I mean...
I feel numb.. I got no feelings left, inside of me.
It's like, everything is on standby.
I pushed the pain, the sadness, and the anger away.
I can't cry.. it feels good, to be without all those feelings.
even though, I know it's stupid pushing it away.

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xxxx

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Non posso, vivere senza di te.
Mi manchi così tanto :(

No.

You said you'd never leave.
You promised... you said "Forever"
but I guess, that doesn't mean anything to you know.

I wish I could find the courage to forgive you
- but it's too late. I can't,
no matter how much, it kills me, that you are no longer
a part of me.

goodbye M. forever. :(

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Game over M.
Thank you for playing.
Just thank you..
I will never be able to forgive you.
Prick. Idiot. Jerk. Ass. Scumbag!
































:'(

When you come to that point...

Welcome to, the fuckd up world, where my opinions, doesent matter, and no one really cares. Is there anyone out there? IS THERE ANYONE LEFT WITH A HEART? I didn't think so either.

Wanna hear something?
- Like I would ever share, that.

You know that feeling, when you get so close to someone, you see them as your brother, and you two have this strong bond, and nothing can break it... you always both said : Forever means forever... and then someday, you meet this jerk, that he turned into, and pushes you away, because he says it's the best for everyone. You know how it hurts, loosing someone that means a lot to you, even though you have never met this person before.

fuck you, m.... fuck you!

Oh, yeah.. I wrote jerk, just because I felt like! that doesent mean, he really is a jerk. I just point it out, right! just for the fact, you are so dead to me now. You can say sorry so many times you want to, but that won't change the fact, that when you needed me and L the most, you pushed us away, because you suddenly needed to change. I know there's probably a lot of stuff and history behind, but honestly... THERE IS NO EXCUSE, FFS.

so here we are... Me and L, standing left with only, words - that was bullshit, and all I wanna say, is ; fuck you. just fuck you.. I hope your mouth is full of bad taste! and that you feel, fucking bad..
I know it's cruel, but it's the truth...

Knife I the throat, ripped out heart, being drowned.
- could be the feelings. you just stepped on.
poor girl. I feel so sorry for what she feels for you.
I know she doesent wanna give up, on you..
but when it comes to love, I'm protecting her, from you!
your the one who was supposed to love her, and support her, and take care of her
but instead, you turn in to a heartless fucking ass!
god, I wish I could give you that slap in the face, you deserve...
I know, we should have been careful when it came to you.

I JUST WANNA SCREAM, GET THE FUCK AWAY.

AND JUST FUCKING REMOVE HER THOUGHTS ABOUT YOU.
SHE WON'T LET YOU GO, FOR FUCK SAKE.
BUT SHE HAS TOO. FOR HER OWN BEST.

I LOVE YOU L. YOU KNOW, IM ALWAYS RIGHT HERE.
FOR EVER AND ALWAYS.
I ALWAYS KEEP MY PROMISE TO YOU.
<3

xxx

My baby.

Today, i got my baby!
Which means, my scooter. <3

xxx